Wednesday, February 4, 2009
I miss my talks with Jack. He has spiraled so far into addiction, his Nintendo DS addiction. More times than not, I hear myself talking to him with no response. Our car rides, once full of Jack's thoughts and stories are now mostly silent with the exception of the cling, clang, ting, ting sound of the Lego's Star Wars game. And when he does talk, he now seems to ask me about things I know nothing about. Things like, "Did you know the clone army is huge?" or "Did you see Boba Fett's jet pack?" or "What do you think Jabba the Hut's weapon is?"
I want my talks back. I know they aren't lost for good. I know this because Jack was without his DS when I picked him up today and it was just like old times. As soon as we hopped into the car, Jack was his old self.
"Mommy, did you know Miss L and Miss J at school are mommies?" he asked.
"Uh huh. I did know that."
"They are mommies and teachers. And you are a mommy, too. Right Mommy?"
"Yup, that's true. I am a mommy."
Jack continued his thought process. "Because if you didn't have any kids, you wouldn't be a mommy. You'd just be a plain old grown up, right?"
"Uh, a 'plain old grown up'?"
"Uh huh, because if you didn't have kids, you would be lonely, right?"
I decided to tread lightly here. "Well, I love having you and Megan and wouldn't want it any other way. But sometimes people don't have kids because they have decided they didn't want to have them, or couldn't have them."
I paused for a second before I continued. "People who don't have kids aren't always lonely...they find other things they are interested in and they..."
Jack finished my sentence with, "They get a dog???"